the thing about carlos is.  he doesn't lose himself with a woman.  not with a lover.  maybe with a whore i don't know.  i wasn't his whore. lovers are different to him.  he might have a use for them.  so he has to seduce them properly. he has to make sure they're so crazy about him they'll do anything for him.
shhh! you're not here.
you don't exist until i'm ready to let you exist, and then.  you do exactly what i say.
it's not pleasure for him.  it's.  it's.  it's.  this sick kind of conquest.  you know this seduction.  he's got to make you not just a lover but a disciple.  a worshipper.  he brainwashes you with his body.  so.  so.  you'll do anything.  you see because he's the perfect lover.  he does it all to.  not to please you.  but to excite you.  to.  to make it dangerous for you and then, that's very sexy too, to a woman.  that danger.  like he could kill you in a second.  but instead he makes you come.  so he's almost killed you, you see? and you have this orgasm right then and it's like he's killed you and there isn't anything left of you and he makes you be born again the way he wants you to be. so there isn't a thought in your brain that he hasn't put there. not a feeling in your body that he hasn't put there.
take off your clothes.
look mister.
i don't want to know your name.  i don't want to know anything about you okay. this isn't fun for me. i'm not here to play soft music and be romantic. i'm here to help you kill him.  at least i hope that's what you're going to do. they promised me it was.
take off your clothes.
you're smaller than him.
that's what he would have done if i would have said something like that. without a moment's hesitation. what's wrong with you?! no eres ni hombre!
now come to me and kiss where you hit.
kiss where the blood is and then smear it on my lips so i taste it.
now go down on me.  yes like that.  si.  si.  tease me.  tease.  but don't let me come.  control me.  it's got to be when he wants it.  yeah.
ask me if i like it.  he always asks.  he wants to hear it.
demand it.
yeah.
make me beg.
please.
please.  tell me you want me to come.
you want to feel it all over you.
stop!.  stop it!
he never loses control.  he never tells you how he feels. he's in control. he's the one who makes you feel what he wants you to feel. he never feels anything.  you stupid.  stupid.
roll over!
on your back!
i'm carlos.  you're me.
you like it.
you like it?
ooooo i want to make you come.
i want to make you come.  i want to feel it all over me.
let me.  let me do it.  put your hands down.
he does that.  he's crazy.  he chokes you.  just a little.
then he goes to the refrigerator and eats.  he's always hungry afterwards.  always.  god i feel like filth.
get your hands off me!
i don't care who you are. i don't want to know anything about you.  except that you're going to kill him.