well, they know what it is -- it's called fibrous dysplasia -- -- they just don't know what caused it. i'm embarrassed. it's just -- the pain. it's only getting worse. i can't be a good wife. i can't be a good mother. know what i always thought i wanted outta life, erin? a jaguar. i thought if i could spend that kinda money on a car, it'd mean everything else was fine. i don't even know how much they cost. wouldn't mean the same thing.