what dostoyevsky is saying here is that to be a christian is to choose, because you have to choose of your own choice, but since you can't choose to be good because that would be too rational you have to choose to be bad -- it's existential. the idiot? great, thanks for the tip. open it paul! excellent. we were waiting! major. beer. in the pantry. frankie opens them with his teeth. yeah, paul, are you gonna get home okay? no candy for me? what is it? let's see! oh far out, paulie. hey look, these expired like five months ago. you think they're better aged? thanks for the advice dad. yeah. yeah but you don't even know me really. my what? and i have a special feeling too, because i do. it's special. and i have a feeling for you too, because you're just like -- i feel for you like you're -- you're just like -- i do. hah hah you're funny. a bath. like a brother and sister. oh man, i'm so wasted.