telly says was up. you still mad at him? he stole her virginity. he took it away and now it's gone forever. that shit is nothin. i remember, i had just turned 14. with this fuckin asshole who was like 18. i don't even remember his name. i think it was john or jake or something. i remember he had a brother named lentil because i would always joke and call him lentil bean. this was away at like sleep away camp with your friends and shit. and we did it in the bush. like outside around midnight. i got fucking mosquito bits all over my ass. and we thought everyone was sleeping, but they obviously weren't because everybody knew. and it was out on the grass somewhere. and it hurt like a motha, oh my god the pain! the pain. the fucking pain! you are being ripped open. did you bleed? you didn't? i bled. i bled like on the condom, there was blood everywhere. and you know what he started singing? he started singing "sunday bloody sunday." that stupid fucking song. i was like. i was like. no. they sang that the whole sleep away. my reputation! i know. hell yeah. i love. i love sex. right. you know it's not like. you know there's a difference between sex, making love, and fucking! making love is like. it's grandmother style. it's like. yeah. it's really slow. it's slow boring. it's very monotonous. right. you're like it's just this instinct. it's like this animal instinct is taking over you. it's like. boom!!! boom!!! hell yeah, they don't know. mine? yeah. it depends. cause like this one time with eric, when we got blasted at his house. and smash j and dj flipper was there. and we were blasted, and he must have been dumb horney. and he just pulled me over to the bed. and they were in the room, like getting dressed, like getting ready to go to go to disco and we were like underneath the sheets. we were going at it like crazy. oh my god that shit was so good! it was like hard. he was like sucking my tits. he was fucking fingering me. but that shit was nice and hard. i was like ripping his hair out. and we kissed like so hard that our lips were busted. and that shit was so good. it was crazy. he was like ripping my hair. i was like oh yeah. work it. yep. yeah it's the biggest disappointment! to come? yeah. fifteen minutes to a half an hour. hard and deep. yeah i get bored. yeah. 'cause they fucking shoot you in the eye, the face, the ear. yeah. and then it hits that little thing. that little punch bag. what is it? the tonsils. the esophagus, whatever. and it's like. how much more can i bob here? you know. i have. it was. it was. no, no, no. you can't get that taste out of your mouth. until you eat something. you can drink like there's no tomorrow but you still can't get that sperm between the teeth out. it's so disgusting. the only way you can get it out is like if you eat like a real meal. i've known the past of all the people i've fucked without a condom. like i know one of the people got tested and was negative. and i know that one of them fucked like two other girls, who were both virgins, so i knew he was safe. and the other person i just fucked, which was a mistake. but i went to the clinic last week with jennie. i made her get tested with me because i didn't want to go alone. umm. altogether? hmm. i'd say eight, maybe nine. with four of them, i didn't use any kind of protection. wait, maybe it was three. yes. umm. three i believe. but i'm not sure. uh. yes. twice they weren't. two times they didn't. i don't know, i think he's mad at me, but who cares. wish me luck. yes! oh my god. i can't tell you how nervous i've been. i couldn't sleep last night. shh. come on, it's gonna be ok. come on. don't cry. we'll work it out. get the fuck outta here man! i said get the fuck outta here before i smash your fucking face in mothafucka!!! don't go anywhere. stay with me. i'm coming. jen! jennie!