the attachment. i loved her so much. and i didn't treat her and the goddamn regret. the goddamn regret. and i'll die.
now i'll die and i'll tell you: what? the biggest regret of my life: i let my love go.
i ruined my love. jesus. jesus christ. what did i do and i had to get away? something, something to do. i can't explain. . i love her so much. leave her there.  and to punish. punish her.
and the punishment for what? what? . nothing. and i'm so embarresed.  so embarresed for what i've done.
i'm seventy five years old and embarresed. . million years ago. my fuckin regret and guilt and these things. don't let anyone tell you that you shouldn't regret anything. don't do that. don't.
you fuckin' regret what you want.  . use that. use that.
use that regret for you any way you want. you can use that ok.  someone says not to regret or think about the past, something, mistakes we make. bullshit.
this is a long way to go for no punch. a little moral. story i say.  love. love. love. this fuckin' life.  ohhhhhhh, love.
it's so fuckin' hard. and so long.  life ain't short it's long. life is long, godddmnit -- god damn. whatd i do? whatd i do? ohhhh what'dido?