you get my cigarettes? i ain' gon' say it again. tell them assholes to stop ringing my bell. press listen stupid. who that precious? what she want? ask her stupid. eighty-six that bitch. school can't help none. go down welfare. who she think she is? where you going? you hear me talking to you?! come and git it then. where you going?! bring your fat ass in here! where you sneak your ass off to this morning? you hear me talking to you! where you sneak your ass off to this morning?! you lying whore! you is! the welfare done called here, saying they is removing you from my budget 'cause you not in regular attendance in school. you didn't say nothin' `bout no damn school today. i ain' had no breakfast. need to forget school. need to git your ass on down to welfare. fool fuck a stipend. what's that? i said take your ass down to welfare. no stupid. got to be there at 7 in the a.m. if you gonna talk to anybody. -oh you too good for that? is that what you is now, too good for welfare? now hurry yo ass up. i'm gon die of starvation over here. then where you be at then? what you gon' have? yes you is. sit your ass down. jus make mine after you done. this gon' get cold if it sit. do what i say don't say what i say. now eat bitch! best feed like a pig and not a cow so's you can git yo ass back to the stove. if i croak off starvation, where in the world you be at then? bitch!!! first you steal my husband, then you is! you is too! you is and you i'm gon kill you pig! you hear me precious! get your big, black ass back in here! your daddy dead. no. carl . carl had that aids virus. got what? no. we never did, you know. we never did what you got to do to get it. yeah. but not like faggots, in the ass and all, so i know. you welcome back home. 'buse? there was no drugs in ma house! no drugs! 'cause precious know damn well i whoop her ass bright blue if she bring some drugs in ma. why'nt you say dat? dat?! okay. when it first start? well, i, precious b'long at home cause i'm a good mother. she had everything. i done tole her that. pink 'n white baby carriage, little pink bootie socks, dresses; everything i put on her pink. precious, she so smiling and healthy. a day don't go by i don't throw her wheeling in the air. i take her up and down 125th street. me 'n carl loved precious. i dreamed of the day we was gonna you know, git married, git house wif grass, color tv's in all the rooms. precious, she born about the same time as miz west son that got kilt. you remember him don't you precious? he born summertime 'bout same time as you. yeah yeah thas right. my little scorpio chile! scorpio's crafty. i ain' sayin' they lie, jus' you cain't always trust 'em. when? i don't know when it start. when i remember it? she still little. yeah, around three maybe. i give her a bottle. i still got milk in my bresses but not from her but from carl sucking. i give him tittie, precious bottle. hygiene, you know? huh? i bottle her, tittie him. bottle more better for kidz. sanitary. but i never git dried up 'cause carl always on me. it's like that you know. chile, man -a woman got bofe. what you gonna do? so we in bed. i put her one side of me on pillow, carl on other side of me. ms. weiss looks as if she's stopped breathing. i think thas the day it start. so he on me. then he reach over to precious! i say carl what you doing! he say shut your big ass up! this good for her. i say stop carl stop! i want him on me! i never wanted him to hurt her. i didn't want him doing anything to her. i wanted my man for myself -to sex me up, not my chile. me god damn it! so you cain't blame all that shit happen to precious on me. i love carl, i loved him. he her daddy but he was my man! lady from each one preach one say she got poems too. in fact.